One Time

Since Ive been gone...

2005-08-09T03:11:21Z

Well. Its been quite awhile. and i really dont feel like shareing all that has happend in the past DECADE! ... or... well like 9 months. Besdies the fact that everything seemed to be going so perfectly. and it was. as of july 24th my life hit the shits. just because Jake decided we where'nt going to make it any more. so here i am torn into peices.
its been abodut 15 days since, and we still talk constantly. and we act like nothings changed which sucks. and I know where going to get back together but the waiting is harsh..
I quit kmart (FINALLY), started working for macys then quit, and now im a senior working flakly for a lady in the real estate buissness.. cant wait for this year to be over thoe, ill update later

...Me

byn101 @ 2004-12-16T15:46:00

2004-12-16T23:48:33Z

I'm nowon my way too Oregon. Too Spend 4 days with the One I love.

<3 6 4 2 3 3 7 0 text it.

and you are...?

2004-12-12T00:58:05Z

I really hate how I don't ever go to any holiday parties...
I wish I had family that lived semi-close to us, so I could see them and actully know them.
We recived some Xmas cards in the mail today. I read a lonnnnnng letter. (litterally long) on like 8 different people and how there doing and all that good jolly stuff; and yet I have No idea who they are! suppoasbly there cousins of mine, or something. It's sad, really sad. . .

Anyways last night was fun. and today I got up did nothing, went back to bed. Got up. Did nothing. Went back to bed. Got up. Got my nails done, & in 45 min I get to go to WORK! YES! :[. bye
5 days.

byn101 @ 2004-12-10T13:14:00

2004-12-11T00:21:12Z

Looks like my dad is doing better. and All that good stuff.
Work - well I almost quit. I say that every day. :] but really this time. & Im fed up with the people their.
I got an Apolgy from an old friend, that I havent spoken too in forever. Which was Nice. :]
& I think Im going to go see Mandy, at work tonite.
6 days
<3

byn101 @ 2004-12-03T06:17:00

2004-12-03T17:29:37Z

Amanda drove with me down to hayward to go see my dad. He looked good. But still a little bad. He was all laughs and seemed like he was going to be alright. We waited countless min. that seemed like hours, untill I got to go in and see him. It looked as if he had been crying. & the only thing he could say to me was " hey kiddo, I did this so you could get a day off from school" and then I broke down crying.
I stayed and we talked. Told him I loved him and let my sister go in.
I feel sick today so I stayed home, yeasterday was a busy day and I feel all stressed out. I want to call in at work, but they probally wont believe me even if I tell them my dads in the hosp. sighs. my mom needs me right now, I can sence it.
Jake was mad, because he found out from luke what had happend to me dad. he didnt help my sistuation out last night. but It's ok, i know what he means. & today is his birthday. So I should go call him.

13 days

waiting....

tubes.....and complicated things

His <3 rate

<3

snif

2004-12-02T19:59:28Z

This morning about 5 :30 a.m I was awoken to the sound of sirens, crying, loud obnoxious talking, and my dog barking like crazy. I had no clue what was going on - tried to roll over and go back to bed. Sleep seemed more important to me then the world out their.
I couldn't handle it.
Open my door and their was my mom, kind of shaken up.
Informing me that my dad had a heart attack.. I wasn't really sure of what happend so I looked behinde her and see them lift my dad into one of those deathbed looking wheely things. and I ran into my bed full of tears. Next thing I knew she said they where taking him to the hospital and My mom asked if I wanted to come, I brushed her off with a NO. and cried like a baby. Then I called Mandy, and she came to my rescue. Shes been here with me all morning. I dont know what I would do with out her.. Dad's being transfered to hayward, and is going to be their all weekend. :( Im leaving in a bit to go see him, The doctors say he should be fine. but they have to run some tests. like always.
I know hes going to be okay. Just the thought of him having a heart attack scares me so much, If anything where to happen to my dad, Id be lost. really. I dont think ive cried so much ever. Hes a tuff guy I know he can stick it out. Everytime I think of him just anything makes me want to tear up. sighs.

I just hope hes going to be fine.
I love him,
:(

</3

why'd the turkey cross the road?...

2004-11-26T00:26:23Z

I got up @ 7 a.m. to spend most of my day at work. How fun. it was so bizzy- why why why... do you people shop on thanksgiving.. GO HOME get fat.. But nope. So I got off at 3ishhhh.... and now im waiting to EAT!

:]
happy thanksgiving all.

Nothing as usual

2004-11-22T05:06:34Z

I'm kind of bored, Like usual. Tomarrow I have a test In History, and for some odd reason I'm driven to want to study.. Unforetenetly I have no idea where my history book is. I don't even recall owning one. It's sad I know. :\ Jake and I talked last night from 11pm - 7 am it was so Nice. I was so tired though. I don't even know what we talked about, but he sang me to sleep. hah :] I love him dearly!
Chelsea called me like 5000000 times today to see if I would come in to work to save her.. so i gave in. worked from 3:30-7:00 it was so Bussy. It was like Christmas gone Bad. It actully looked like a tornado swept through the place. Kmart is so pitaful. I need a new job. The u p-side I found a dollar on the floor. SCHWEET! I saw James P. @ work today. I haven't seen that kid in Like FOREVER. the first thing he said was "holy shit" or somethin along that line. It was funny, I tried to help him find a black zip-up jacket.. No luck. Then after work I saw Nick Sorcie. which made my day. I havent seen him since forever too. he works at subway now, and he makes an awesome sandwhich. We chatted up about old times and now a days. looks like he's doing good. :]

So it's freezing so I'm going to bundle up and hopefully catch Jake.
<3
24 days.

god

2004-11-13T08:24:50Z

School sucked. I had an Okay day, but then it got shitty towards 4th. Then work was good. Just great, it went by hecka quick....
Then after we all went out except for Audry cus yea. Chelsea, Angela, Nicole and Bri all squished into my tiny ass car. It's hella fun with them, but Im so different compared to em. They are all ghetto and Im just not lol. So I feel hella dumb around them,but at the same time its fun.

Then Jake called and sounded irritated that I was out, and he hung up after like a second... second night in a row he hasnt "felt like talking to me" how lovely he maakes me so mad sometimes. I cant even began to explain it.

</3

byn101 @ 2004-11-06T19:08:00

2004-11-07T03:08:52Z

I <3 him.

I'm on my lunch break, and I came home. for nothing. No ones home so it sucks. I guess I'll just go back. Psh. I think I'll go call Jake. :]
I dont have anything interesting to say. My life involves my love,friends and work. what else. nothign. so I guess ill update when something interesting happens.

40 days

finally

2004-11-04T06:40:06Z

Okay I couldn't stand it. I called him. and he knew I was pissed.. haha. he had reasonably good excuses as to why he didn't call so i let him off the hook just this once. He's supposed to call me back in afew... hmm.. better!
So im in a better mood. I guess i just wanted to share that.

Goodnight
<3

grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

2004-11-04T05:29:32Z

I have an outstanding headache, and Jake is really pissing me off.

byn101 @ 2004-11-03T15:36:00

2004-11-03T23:35:57Z

I called in sick today. My ears hurt. I can't hear.

Good luck Brenna.

and thats all.

<3

byn101 @ 2004-11-02T22:50:00

2004-11-03T07:00:16Z

I'm frustrated. .
Today I over-slept so I didn't go to school. Which was fine, although it is funny, how you can be home all day and right when it comes time to actully have to go somewhere (work @ 4) you look back and realize how not-so-productive you where. What a waste, to a shameless day.
Work was bussy bussy. but slow. No one came in. which is a usual drag, because there is never anything to do. But of course Robyn always finds things to do in that place. & today I was occupied with fixing everyone elses mistakes. Some idiot doesn't know how to price things and so there was a shit-load of items on racks that where either [over/under] priced. It doesn't seem like a big deal. BUT OH HOW IT IS.

I think I have an ear-infection or Im just crazy. & Jake hasn't returned my calls.... wth/ ? I know for a fact he is not avoiding me, and you may think that its not true, but I can tell you it's not it. haha. but its not fun. him and Luke have been going to bed earlie which since I dont get off till 10 and get home at 10:30 leaves me with no time to talk to him I guess.. :\ . Well fine. 2 can play that game.

You do something too me, that I can't explain.

<3

byn101 @ 2004-11-01T21:09:00

2004-11-02T05:09:18Z

I'm here without you, but your still with me in my dreams.

I came home from school today at lunch, for I felt like crap. My stomach was tore up from the night before (i'll post pics later) I fell asleep at 5 and I'm getting up right now 9:08 and I'm hungry like hell. and I miss Jake. waiting for him to call me is no fun.

<3

Dont stop here.

2004-10-29T21:40:05Z

The only thing I will ever ask of you .

I just awoke. It's friday. everyone at school is on that feild trip or at home, so I decided to stay in bed all day! and I succeded, I woke up in time for school got dressed had a talk with me mom, and here I am. Freshly wound up and really hungry. School is almost over which means I have to go to work in an hour or so. ahhhh. that sucks.

>Last night was so funny, because Jake always tells me he's going to get off the phone at 12 (he calls me at 10) and he never gets off at 12. We'll be talking away then he's like oh K 10 more min. then that ends up being 80 more hours! <3 :) He can't controll himself I adore him!
47 <3

So whats on the agenda for halloween people? I get to work! 2-10 sounds like fun eh? Im still a kid, i wanna go do stupid things that night. But nope! I guess if Im not Exhausted I'll go out later, but I can't count on it.
well I think Im going to go get dinner now. ha yea dinner. I hate that thought , that I have to eat dinner at 3 o'clock. No time for dinner at Night.
Subway it is.

Cya

BEEEK

2004-10-28T23:48:56Z

I awoke to the sound of Berry's voice on my phone. Urgh. I got called into work, right before I was heading to school she calls to see if I can come in. I hate when she does that, because she doesn't give me enough time to think of a great excuse as to why I can't come in. she said 4-10 but I said 6-10. I won. I also think I'm going to turn in my Request form for Dec. 16 - 21 today. I doubt they'll say yes too it, but it wont hurt to ask, and if not Im going to put in my 2 weeks and Kiss the bitch goodbye. So Instead of doing what I planned on doing on my lovely day off... I get to go get dressed & work like a slave.
Travis stopped by to show off his sexy new car, not really but he got his D.L. today so you know the drill. HAPPY BIRTHDAY to him btw.I talked to Jake last nite, well I talk to him every night, actully & I hope this works out. I know he can do it- but Im more worried about me, hell I dont have anyone down here but its so frustrating having to do this. so frustrating i dont want to deal with it. but deep down I do and there is no way I wouldn't. If you get what I mean? Ovbiously you wont, because its so different when we are together, it's just remarkable. I don't think I've felt more happier in my life-time then now, and it's just because of him. I will make this work. If it kills me.

Tommarrow comes to take me away, I wish that I, That I could stay.

Sexy Glasses Eh?

<3

byn101 @ 2004-10-27T21:41:00

2004-10-28T04:42:52Z

So heres the update.
Its official I guess 10/24/04. Jake and me. it's exciting but not, because hes their and Im here,
I miss him. & then its stupid explaing it to ppl about the distance thing so I dont like to say where anything even though I want to just tell everyone. Do you get it or not. Im going up to see him for christmas and then hes going to come back down. Its frustrating but where going to make it work.

?

School is the same. Work is the same.

"all work and no Play"

Talk to me Sweet thang.
<3

byn101 @ 2004-10-22T22:26:00

2004-10-23T05:31:14Z

Good News: Where getting serious. :] & It makes me feel warm inside. but bring on the bad news...
He lives in Oregon. :[

alrighty daily update.. well today sucked. MAJOR. I don't know what the hell lauren's problem is. but Ovbiously her and vanessa enjoy making me feel miserable all day. I dont even feel like explaining it so for the sum of it, your friends come and go, the best ones will always stay. Even when you think you have a super cool new friend, but news flash sweetie shes not ur friend. um that made no sence, what I guess im trying to say is that Lauren and me ...Friends since the big Kinder yrs. and I hate to say it but now a days shes just flushing that shit away, so be it. Im dead to her now, she killed it when she called me a bitch, with Vanessa. (long story...)

this entry sucks . i just got off work my feet hurt. I need Jake

byn101 @ 2004-10-20T19:06:00

2004-10-21T02:09:46Z

So today seemed like its been taking forever. I need to go get my scheduale for work. I saw Bri today :) shes all better. bla bla k bye

Keyboarding 2

2004-10-19T17:36:15Z

im in keyboarding 2.. bored out of my mind. my hair is still wet from my 5 second shower this morning , since I got up extra late. I couldn't sleep last night at all. I'm not sure why? I remember waking up constantly. *sighs* Jake didn't call me, what a jerk. Oh well it's ok :]

The power just went out which was exciting, for the mere 7 seconds-only to find that I had to do my work all over again.. urgh. Sooooo I have nothing to say except I have 3 tampons in my purse for Amanda, and she wont pik up her phone to meet me outside to get em.

Oh and yes... Ashley wasn't at school Just because its her birthday, even if she trys to lie and say it was for some other reason.. I DONT THINK SO! now her shit is all sogy and schweet! H A P P Y B I R T H D A Y

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Now your gone

2004-10-18T22:35:13Z

It was all So nice, while it lasted. now I'm heartbroken. and I wonder hows it going to be when Im not their?

Mandy and I waited at the Sac Airport for our boys. while waiting we played with wheel chairs

@ Santa Cruz

Then we took the boys too G&G's

then sum

byn101 @ 2004-10-14T13:07:00

2004-10-15T08:08:38Z

So I made it back ..
I really dont feel like spilling all about hawaii. It was fun. and weird at the same time. Mandy and I saw 2 girls from freedom Rachel & Sam. Sophmores. We saw them everyone and decided to talk to them, I recognized them from seeing pics in Dominics Lj. small world
Anywho. Me and Jake are really hitting it off. I pick him up tomarrow along with Luke. Im nervous but then Excited! :]]]]]
GoODnite
all.

byn101 @ 2004-10-03T06:24:00

2004-10-03T13:30:26Z

   I'm On Vacation in Hawaii. Starting......

                                                                                                                                             ......NOW!

<3

byn101 @ 2004-10-02T19:54:00

2004-10-03T03:02:08Z

I got up & shopped my heart out,
with my mother. It was great fun. Packed.. Packed..Packed and then some
but yet Im not even close to being done! :\...Sean poor kids got it
bad, actully not really. but man I <3 that guy, he actully went to
the game last night and I dared him to goto the dance today and hes
going... he looked really good too. his date is Sara. :] . He came over
before hand to ask how he should "dance" it was kinda funny! I dont
know how too so I tried to help the best I could. I hope he doesnt look
like a fool! he's got style but from the wrong decade! we went flower
shopping too, then Mel called - Im going to try to get the chip to you.
I have to run to the video store later so hopefully I can drop it off.
we Picked out Red roses. They are LOVELY! & he took one and gave
the rest too me! Schweet...! Sean & me are like family, thats how close we
are or how it seems. hes just like the brother i never had.. for all who think
otherwise, but I showed him how to slow dance, or tryed to show him...
and it was really aqward, we both kinda had that moment like in the
movies haha. or maybe it was just me. :]

Sean

oh how he wish he could smell

mine..

look at all those fishes :p

Im not havin an orgasim.. I was trying to do the shampoo commercial

sucky